Just how much things can change in a year..

Welcome back!

So i'm sure you have all heard from friends, family, anybody you talk to, 'a lot can happen in a year'. Obviously i knew how much could change/happen in a year but i think i shocked myself with just HOW MUCH happened in 2017..

I'll start with at the end of 2016 i was 19 years old and i lived with my grandparents (who by the way are absolute diamonds). The night of new year going into 2017 i decided it was going to be my year to change everything i wasn't happy with to feel better in myself.

Starting with who is now my boyfriend, definitely fancied him for a while, found myself going out for no reason just because i knew he was in the pub..it would've been an absolutely ridiculous and tragic thing to do if he wasn't looking out for me too.

This is where the start of being happy begins. After a few evenings of going round to the 'bedsit' flat to watch rubbish on Netflix, and I'm not joking, he's very interested in documentaries and there was one specific one that we started to watch together that bored me almost to tears but at the time didn't have the heart to tell him being in the 'honeymoon period'. (luckily we quickly found something else to watch and never had to watch the rest of that series)!!

It was maybe the 5th time i had gone over to spend the evening with him and i suddenly realised that i hadn't been home in over a week (bearing in mind it was only 4 doors down from my house) and i can say since that day i never did go home..only to collect bits and bobs secretly until i had the courage to tell my grandparents i wasn't living at home anymore.

Everything i had wanted to change to become happier was finally happening and so quickly, from then on i felt like i had the world, i had a brilliant man, a job that i adored (domiciliary care worker for the previous 1.5 years) and i had made the best of friends through this.

This is now when my world came crashing down and i didn't know what to do.

From January to March i was beaming all day everyday, i had been for weekends away and was treated like a queen. i had finally got round to booking my holiday to ibiza for my friends wedding and started looking forward to Kavos for my 20th birthday! (which i am saving for another post, you'll definitely want to read that one).

Id meet up with my best friends Kelly and Kate whenever we was all off shift and we would have the best times if we was all on the same shift! Drinking wine and eating cheese until we feel into food comas, we were the best trio!

March 29th 2017 is a night that will always feel like yesterday and i will never forget. Kelly was in a car accident and heartbreakingly didn't make it. (its too hard to talk or even type about and i don't want to change the focus of the post).

My happiness had stopped and i couldn't breath. 3 became 2. The next couple of weeks were extremely difficult but i tried to rebuild my happiness by starting to look forward to Ibiza.

Now, things were looking up! I was off to Ibiza with a massive group of pretty much half the town i lived in plus half the town 15 minutes away (any more and we would've had to of had our own plane).

I am such a grandma when it comes to going out and staying up all night, no matter where i was in the world which is why i was paired to share a room with the brides family who i had never really met but thank god we got on. Ibiza was fantastic and the most fun. And lets be honest who doesn't love a wedding? of course i cried but it was SO HOT that the tears dried before they reached my chin so hopefully nobody noticed.

Ibiza done, landed at home. Spent the week with my wonderful man.

Unpacked my suitcase into the washing machine to the tumble dryer to just be put back in my case because i was off to Kavos for my 20th birthday !!!! (i will not be reliving the Kavos story on this post because i feel it was too much of a disaster and deserves its own post).

THANK GOD i was home! But again not for long, i was off to Greece, with my boyfriend this time, please don't ask me how i was paying for all these holidays because to this day I'm surprised i wasn't homeless or starving!

Greece was amazing and our first proper holiday away together and i loved every single second! - it was also quite exciting as we were awaiting some massive hopefully amazing news!

We arrived home and got the news we were hoping and praying for..my boyfriend had BOUGHT A HOUSE. To my surprise he asked me to move into it with him and make our house a home for our future together!

In September last year i was starting to become a bit miserable in my job without Kelly here anymore and i had felt like i had got everything out of it that i could, so i applied to be a mental health care worker, got the job. (All within a week, haha) just completed my NVQ 2 and I've almost finished my 9 months probation period (although i should imagine if i was that bad they would've sacked me by now, pretty certain i have the job). First Christmas and new year together in our new house with all our great friends done.

Basically i suppose what i am trying to say is i am not too sure what happened last year as it all happened so fast.

It feels like last week i was 19 living with my grandparents and now this week i am 20, have a house, have a pretty serious committed relationship, lost my best friend, been on 3 holidays, got a new job and last week bought a desperately needed new car and impatiently waiting for our holiday to THAILAND!

Never take ANYTHING or ANYONE for granted and if you're unhappy, CHANGE IT, if i stayed in that rut i wouldn't have the things i have today.

A bit of a longer post but it was sort of an add on to 'introducing me' and thought it was too much of a whirlwind year not to share.

Thank you for taking the time reading and trying to understand what happened last year, if you did then well done you!

hope you come back for the next one!

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